Another beginning

The secret to Casanova, argue the numerologists, is in the unique formation of the letters of his name. A, the first letter of the alphabet, ends the name. A is repeated consistently in the name; this repetition is violated just once. N, the middle letter of the alphabet, is directly situated before the violation.
C begins the name, also the first letter of a vulgar word for the male sex. VA ends the name, the first two letters of a proper word (which some consider vulgar) for the female sex.

As the numerologists are not clear on how to interpret their findings, other than to note their undoubted significance, I shall humbly attempt to do so below.

But first, my qualifications.

I hate numerology. This not the hate/love of a man for his penis, nor the laissez-faire hatred of a sleepy woman towards an empty bed. I want numerology to cease to exist. I want pages ripped out of encyclopedias, whole sections of university libraries empty. I want puzzled expressions on professor's faces when they search their minds for a discipline they used to know quite well.

I tried, oh how I tried, to hate numerology without knowing its innermost secrets. For years any mention of the subject would send me into a death-spiral of guilt and pain. I could not bear to hate something so well without understanding what it was that I hated. Why numerology? My mother was a launder, my father an autocrat. I was poor, then rich, then poor again, depending who raised me, which week or month or year it was. And throughout this bipolar time in my life, I gradually became aware of only one deep and sincere hatred.

Finally I harnessed my fear and rode it straight into the devil's mouth. I studied with Vincent, although at first he would not have me, with Bornoes, with Guildlily, overriding all their objections and hesitations. I attended the little-known midnight mass of St Charlene's in Attesbourgh, held once every five years and attended by numerologists of rare repute. I penetrated secret societies I cannot name here and learned tricks even I cannot access unless the need is great.

And I discovered the bizarre importance of Casanova.

All numerologists are impotent.

This is intentional! For the root of numerology is in ancient Jewish mysticism, and those rabbis were ascetics. They believed in God, that everywhere was God, and to see Her required bridging the world of man with the world of God, existing fully in neither. And as Casanova knew, the moment of orgasm is one of the few that demands complete existence in self.